Reflections

Todays been a pretty awesome day all in all, I can't really complain. The Star Trek movie was just SO amazing, I almost cried with happiness at the end (I wish I was joking...). I would go into detail with various bits of Trekkie info but if you wanted that I'm sure you would look it up yourself as you clearly have access to the internet.

I think my problem is I'm just waaaayyy too stressed out, its just making me feel angry and/or tearfull all the time which would be bad enough at a normal time of the year let alone when everyone else I know is just as stressed out and tearful on account of bloody exams.

Times like this really makes me wonder why I choose to go to university, if it was up to me I would take a degree if faffing about and do fuck all with the rest of my life but apparently thats not a valid career option though in many peoples opinions it seems to rank higher then being a housewife. I personally want to be a housewife but obviously I can't do that until my boyfriend and I get married and since he's going to be uni for three or four years I might as well go too. Plus I have no way of knowing exactly how things are going to work out with me and him and having a way to support myself seems only wise.

But dispite being the prudent option I seriously do wonder if I have the... discipline required to finish my History degree (with a grade worth having). I'm pretty sure I have the intelligance required but I seem to suffer from a cronic inability to apply myself. Not really sure why if I'm honest. Part of me thinks its the whole 'you can't be dissapointed with yourself if you never really tried in the first place' thing but tbh even when I do really try I'm still dissapointed so its most likely the lazy cow gene kicking in, though who I inherited it from I have no idea.

I'm currently listening to The Blowers Daughter by Daimien Rice, that song makes me wanna cry, sad right?

What I really need to do is find a way to destress because when I'm stressed I can't work untill it reaches the stage where I will actually fail if I don't start doing some work but somehow I can't see that being an effective method for studying for university exams. Its weird because I enjoyed revising for my history A Levels *shrugs*. I'm thinking to buy some Kalms like I did last yeah even though they're probably just placebos I have a very effective imagination so they should continue to work on me just fine.

I actually wanted to scream at the top of my lungs when I was at Asda and smash up the whole store and just run wild, I'm pretty sure it would have made me feel better but I don't think the 55p I had in my purse would have covered the damages. I'm so poor its unreal, like late 80's special effects unreal.

Anyway, thats enough blabbering from me, night.

To do list:
Chill the fuck out
REVISE
Avoid going mental in the middle of Asdas
CHILL THE FUCK OUT

Funny moods, apparently not so funny

I've been in a weird mood today, not 100% sure why. I think its a combination of exam-stress, housemate-stress and miscellaneous 'life is shit'-stress

The lovely Emma phoned me as I was busy thinking about getting ready to go to meet Alex for lunch saying she had lost her debit card and asking if I could look for it in my sitting room. Turns out she had it all along, silly sasuage.
She walked with me to uni her, Alex and I had a bite to eat, soon joined by Papa Tim as Alex and I were meant to meet him in town but didn't as I was running late (as per usual).
We didn't go to the Freemason Museum in the end but we did go to the Sidney Cooper Gallary to see the pictures some guy took of various quarries. Some of them were intresting, some of them were, well... pictures of quarries, I mean what do you want me to say?

We then found this lovely French resturant that had an outdoor eating area, Tim was in heaven because he could smoke and eat at the same time (not literally but you know what I mean).

BOOKED OUR SEATS FOR THE STAR TREK PREVIEWS!!!
(There arn't enough exclimation marks in the world to do that sentance justice but three's pushing it as it is so I'm going to have to leave it at that.) Alex has a lecture that finishes at 7 and from there we're going to the movie so we can get a good seat (it starts at 8). SO EXCITED! :D I have been waiting for theis movie for what feels like forever... I'm going to have to stop there because as a Trekkie I often find it difficult not to wax lyrical about how great and wonderful it is and if I get anymore into it I may not finish anytime soon.

SO. Had BBQ ribs in the canteen (oh so yummy and a decent portion size for once). Also met my lovely friend Jack, who we call Jick because he went to South Africa and does a pretty good accent. Jick, Alex and I had a nice sit in the sunny quad and watched the moorhen chicks on the pond which was nice. Alex said one of the chicks got stuck near the outflow pipe and had to be fished out *awwww* so cute :]

Anyway, we all went our separate ways to revise and after I've walked Jake to the chipshop to get some dinner thats exactly what I intened to do.

P.S. To Any Star Wars Fans: George 'Infranciside' Lucus is currently producing a live-action TV series of Star Wars. After the animated movie I honestly thought things couldn't get worse for you guys but apparently it can. So in order to show my condolences I shall LAUGH IN YOUR FACE, HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. HA.