But why do they cheat even if they love you? Because being in love with one person doesn't stop you from wanting to fuck/loving another one. Think about it: it's not like you can only have one friend at a time. That rule is just something we made up, and our bodies don't believe it.

I can't tell you how I really feel
or say what I long to say,

though I dream of it every evening

and whisper it everyday.

I long to tell you I love you,

holding back hurts me so,

sometimes when you smile at me

its like you already know.

So I'll pretend it's fine,

that my pains only small

'cause I'll rather half have you

than not have you at all.

A heartbreak isn't always as loud as a bomb exploding.
Sometimes, it could be as quiet as a feather falling and the most painful thing is, nobody hears it but you.

Ah. And just like that its like no time had passed at all. Does she know about me? About us? I have a feeling she doesn't. What's this, a conscience? Just when I was starting to think I didn't have one...

I don't miss you. I miss the memories of you. I miss what we had. When I sigh, I don't sigh for you now, I sigh for the you I had then, and for the me you had then. I miss the love we shared, it was awesome, amazing, all encompassing, euphoric, wonderful, so so many words, so so many songs. I sigh for the faith we had, the naive leaping into the unknown. I sigh for the heartbreak and soul crushing sadness at the end of things.

Don't get me wrong, I'll never stop loving you, but its not you now its you then and that's the crucial difference.

Today was a bit of a bust. But you know what they say, if at first you don't succeed try, try again... but then give up, there's not need to be a dick about it

There's something to be said for seeing the man you love naked and realising that it would be a travesty if you didn't make love to him before you died.

Essays have drained me






I have nothing more to say.

My love will last forever,
our laugh will never fade,
our hearts will stay together,
until the end of days.

Your kiss will ever linger,
the words you used to say,
I’ll see your smile forever,
until the end of days.

Your heart will beat as mine beats,
pulse racing as we play,
our hearts will beat together,
until the end of days.

My love will last forever,
our memories never fade,
we’ll stay in love together,
until the end of days.

Life lasts but a season,
the laughter drifts away,
though your heart is broken,
your hurt, it too will fade

We plan to love forever
and though plans oft go wrong,
as starlight fades to morning
your pain will not stay long

As memories lose their glitter
and joy becomes your past,
remember this my darling,
all this is soon to pass

So Sally can wait,

she knows it's too late as we're walking on by

Her soul slides away,

but don't look back in anger



I heard you say

I need to sort my life out, I really, really do




I'm so tired, I'm not sure I'll ever be fully awake ever again :[

Well what's the fucking point then?

Wait... what?




This is all so crazy

I used to know what my future held and what I wanted to do
And now I don't know and I feel so lost, and free, and scared
I'm doing the right thing, I think. I'm doing the sensible thing, I know that much at least.
But when does sensibility stop safeguarding and start restricting?

Am I brave enough to take that leap?

How long do you have to stay for debts to be repaid? It’s hard to measure matters of the heart.

I owe more than this, I know. But does the very fact I'm being found wanting mean I should go so a better replacement can be found or stay and make up for what I lack, somehow.


Why can't things just be simple again, I'm so confused.

I need to touch you
I reach out my hand, you're never there

I need you to love me
to really love me
body and mind
But when I reach out my hand, you're never there

I need you
I need YOU
my love
I need you
but when I reach out my hand, you're never there

I want to remember it all
and breathe it all in

and run and run forever

I want to laugh with you
and smile at you

and bask in your love always

Every other moment and every other thought is of you

just of you


And every other beat of my heart is for you

just for you


I would offer my all if I could, every piece of my soul given to you

Just for you

-Man's reach exceeds his grasp
-Man's grasp exceeds his nerve
-Man's reach exceeds his imagination

What I can have I can't hold
What I can hold I dare'nt
I could have all I dream and more
I wonder if all my limits are self imposed...

So many wishes, and all of them for you
If I loved you forever, would you love me too?

I dream of you often, its gets me though the day
and lie awake thinking of you at night
imagination so strong I can feel you touch me
and taste your lips

But only for a fleeting moment, too soon you're gone again
and I'm alone
again






Can you truely miss something you've never had? Cos I miss you



Oh God, how I miss you